It’s that time again!
1. What did you do in 2014 that you’d never done before?
I had a C-section. I really wanted a natural birth, but for Ava’s safety and my own, it was necessary to have a C-section. I’m not disappointed because both of us are healthy, which is the most important thing. The doctor said I could try for a VBAC if I had a second baby, but I think I’ll probably elect to have another C-section if and when the time comes. A doctor friend of mine pointed out that VBACs can result in this (seriously, do not click if you’re at all squeamish), and as of now there is no way that I want to risk that happening.
2. Did you keep your new year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
My only resolution for 2014 was to keep up with my classes. I took an additional quarter of classes in 2014, but then stopped because I didn’t want to have Ava in the middle of the quarter. And then it was too demanding to handle a baby and work to add classes to the mix. I’d like to start the classes again, but I’m taking the Utah bar in February, so the earliest I would take classes is next summer.
My resolutions for 2015 are as follows:
(1) Lose weight. I was doing really well before Halloween and then I got cocky and indulged in too much candy. Chocolate is truly my weakness. Then with Thanksgiving and Christmas, I’ve done a lot of backsliding. My goal for 2015 is to lose 30 pounds. Starting tomorrow, I’m going to go back to counting calories and, at least for the first month, try to detox from chocolate.
(2) Stay focused. I don’t know if it’s sleep deprivation or what, but I have a lot of trouble concentrating. I started using a Chrome extension from StayFocused.com that starts blocking specified websites if you spend too much time on them. It’s helping a lot.
(3) Get organized. I have too much work to do in the time allotted. I’m also scatterbrained. So I’ve been relying on technology to help organize my life. I have a post coming up about the specific technology I’m using. I also want to finish organizing the house. My closet and bureau are too disorganized and my papers are in too many places.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Tiffany’s hat and blanket put to good use!
4. Did anyone close to you die?
5. What countries did you visit?
6. What would you like to have in 2015 that you lacked in 2014?
2015 is going to be the year that I become more settled about myself. Last year I felt very out of sorts because I was confused about what I wanted to do with my career and how becoming a mother would change my sense of self.
I was very scared that I would be a terrible mother. When Ava was born and in her fussy stage, I was scared to be alone with her. I didn’t know what to do when she cried and I didn’t want to harm her through ineptitude. But after she cried for hours and was still okay, I eventually became comfortable with her. And now I have no problem taking care of her. She rarely cries now and it’s mostly only for silly things like when I put her down on the bed and she’d prefer that I hold her. Each week brings new skills and I love seeing her change.
I haven’t quite solved the career situation, but I’m okay with it for now.
So for 2015, I want to become more comfortable with myself and manage my anxiety better.
7. What dates from 2014 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
May 11, 2014 is the day Ava was born.
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
This seems to be the answer for a lot of these questions, but making the most perfect beautiful baby that has ever existed is quite an achievement.
9. What was your biggest failure?
I let my lack of sleep interfere with work.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I’m not sure if the C-section counts as an injury, but it has taken awhile to recover. I still don’t have complete feeling around the scar, and it often twinges. I haven’t been sick since Ava was born, knock on wood. Can nursing keep you healthy?
11. What was the best thing you bought?
It hasn’t arrived yet, but Restoration Hardware had a good sale right before Christmas, so I splurged on a cabinet for my bathroom. I’m pretty excited to have a place to put towels again. I’ve been living out of a tiny closet in the bedroom, and it’s a hard adjustment from the two walk-in closets I had at the old house. I know you’re weeping for me right now.
I also bought these wonderful socks that have the pattern of Gustav Klimt’s “The Kiss” on them.
12. Where did most of your money go?
Buying a new house and paying for a nanny.
13. What did you get really excited about?
Ava eclipses all other exciting things, but I’m also pretty psyched to have a huge kitchen with an oven rack. For Christmas Jon bought me a beautiful cookware set. Guess who made it? That’s right, OXO! Jon had a gorgeous ring custom made for me with Ava’s birthstone on it. I love it so much.
14. What songs will always remind you of 2014?
I sang a lot of Beatles songs to Ava, especially in the first couple months when I was trying to get her to stop crying.
15. Compared to this time last year, are you:
– happier or sadder? Much, much happier.
– thinner or fatter? Thinner, but only because I’m not pregnant.
– richer or poorer? Poorer.
16. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Sleep. But I didn’t have much of a choice in that one.
17. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Worry about things that were beyond my control.
18. How did you spend Christmas?
Spending time with family and cooking delicious meals.
19. What was your favorite TV program?
I still love The Walking Dead but I haven’t actually watched the latest season because Ava won’t tolerate TV. I have kept current with The Big Bang Theory, though.
20. What were your favorite books of the year?
I thought I read a ton of books in 2014, but according to Goodreads I’ve only read 15.
I went through a huge post-apocalyptic phase. Jon turned me onto the Wayward Pines trilogy by Blake Crouch. I also really enjoyed the classic Alas Babylon by Pat Frank and The Road by Cormac McCarthy. I was disappointed in Station Eleven by Emily St. John Mandel. It was on a list of the best books in 2014 so I was expected it to be fantastic. Oryx and Crake by Margaret Atwood was so good, it’s making me consider reading The Handmaid’s Tale again. I didn’t like it the first time I read it, but I might enjoy it more if I treated it as a literary work instead of a book to read for pleasure.
In more fluffy selections, I liked Sleep is for the Weak, which is a compilation of selections from mommy blogs, Gone Girl by Gillian Flynn, and The Husband’s Secret by Lianne Moriarty.
21. What was your favorite music from this year?
I discovered St. Vincent this year and I liked J. Mascis’ solo album.
22. What were your favorite films of the year?
The only film I can remember watching is Birdman. It was fantastic.
23. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 34 and I worked. Jon and I got sushi for lunch.
24. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
If there was a way to feel like I could be both an amazing mother and a great attorney.
25. What kept you sane?
Jon took care of Ava in the mornings to help me get more sleep during a critical time.